Heartburn and Dreams: Week 24 update

As you can tell by the title these are the symptoms I am experiencing! Heartburn every time I eat something; it does not matter what it is or when I eat it. It does tend to be worse in the evening. I have also been having the weirdest dreams. Some are a bit on the scary side and I have a hard time going back to sleep afterwards. It doesn't help that getting comfortable is not an easy task and getting up to go pee several times a night interrupts my sleep!

I have been feeling her move a lot more and some days it is really strong. Other times her movements are very suttle if at all. I sometimes wonder if I felt her move at all during the day and I will get worried, but then at night she lets me know she is there! Then there are other days where she is active all day and not much during the night!

We have started the transition of having Nathan and Alex share a room and now we just need to transition Luke into the room that he will share with Abigail. We are looking at different ideas for color schemes/themes to use in their room. So far we have not made a decision, but I think I have it narrowed down to two! We will not paint the room because we rent, but the crib bedding and Luke's toddler bedding will go together! I am excited to start buying girlie clothes and shoes! My mom and I looked at stuff at Walmart today and I have to say girls have so much more then boys!

Here are some belly shots and I will have a more detailed update on Feb. 10th after we see the new Obgyn!

An Honest Prayer

Dear God, Please bless my Children,
While they are calmly near slumber’s edge.
Oh Lord, Please make it pleasant,
The dreams, keep them distant from the ledge.

Dear God, Please keep them safe,
While they are outdoors, playing hard.
Oh Lord, give them the courage,
To deal with life when it becomes marred.

Dear God, Please stay beside them,
Throughout each and every day.
Oh Lord, as they begin to make choices,
Please help to guide them in the right way.

Dear God, please send them an Angel,
One whom will always be there.
Oh Lord, don’t we all have one?
A Guardian Angel with a shield to share.

Dear God, please help them to learn,
And, not to be so naive.
Oh Lord, help them to understand You,
So that they will be able to Believe.

Dear God, please open their eyes,
And help them to understand.
Even though sometimes life isn’t easy,
They can be guided by your humble hand.

Dear God, You are the Alpha and the Omega,
Which is the beginning and the end.
Oh Lord, together we can all make it,
For, there’s nothing your love can’t mend.


RebeccaJeanine

Hurt Feelings

Back over the summer a friend of mine reached out to me for help. To make a long story short her and her husband had gotten into an altercation and he took matters a little too far. Well he ended up in jail for the night and she stayed with me for about a week. In the end she choose not to press charges and went back to him. However, he now holds the whole incident against me and it has really put a wedge in between my friend and I. We no longer hang out as much or even talk as much. She is due to have a baby in April, so we should be having a lot of fun together. Her son and Luke are only two months apart and we use to hang out and have play dates, but not anymore. Well she called me tonight to get some addresses of people we both know so she can invite them to her baby shower and her son's birthday, but then she says I cannot send you one. I was like are you serious; you are not inviting me to your baby shower or your son's birthday. Her response was you are invited in my heart, but if you show up things will get ugly. I was so hurt! I cannot believe that her husband could not swallow his pride for one day so I can be there for my friend. Now we attend the same church and he will come occasionally, but I cannot come on his turf. When he comes to church, I don't bother him. I may say hi to my friend and the baby, but that is it. I have not held anything against him except for the wedge that he is putting into our friendship! I am trying to be the bigger person; trying not to be judgemental, but I am hurt! I have been in her shoes before, so I think that makes it even harder.

Disbelief

I keep looking at the ultrasound pictures over and over again. I cannot believe we are having a girl! Me having a girl after having three boys! Secretly I have always wanted a little girl, but truly I AM SCARED TO DEATH! What am I suppose to do with a little girl. We do not have anything for little girls. We do not behave like little girls. My house is full of stinky, rough and tough little boys. They burp and fart and wrestle. This is what I am use to. I have even at times become one of the guys. I don't wear dresses, I don't wear make up, I don't do hair, so what am I suppose to do with a little girl. I am not even sure if I have ever played dolls or had a tea party. I was and still am a tomboy. Yes, I will wear a dress/shirt and make up once in a while, but not ofter. Yes, I am sure I can wing a tea party and even playing dress up. I know that I am going to love her no matter what and she is going to become the princess while I take on the role of queen. She is going to be the most spoiled member of our family and we are in for a big change. Move over rough and tumble boys the princess is moving in!

Think Pink

YES, IT IS A GIRL! We are so excited! We had an hour and a half free ultrasound done today by a student at Western Career College with the help of her teacher. They did a great job. I could not be happier. The beginning of the ultrasound the student has specific landmarks that she has to find as part of her training, so there was a lot of medical vocab. being used as they looked at the baby's brain, heart and spine. Then towards the end it was time to see if the baby would let us see the goods! At first the student thought it was a boy. She thought she saw boy parts, but then the teacher kept asking are you sure. They went back and forth boy, girl for a little bit and I was starting to think we would not know again! Then finally the teacher got a good shot and said it was definitely a GIRL! My measurements were anywhere from 22-24 weeks, but we are sticking with 23 weeks and same due date of May 22. I also got the phone call from my new OBGYN and will be seeing her on Feb. 10th. I will also be going back for another ultrasound with Western Career College on Feb. 25th. Lots of pictures will be posted. Speaking of pictures here are the five that we got today. They are already labeled, so hopefully you can read what they say!

Limbo

I am in limbo right now and it is kind of scary. This is what is happening. I went a head and had my records transferred to a new OBGYN. Well now I am in limbo with no OBGYN until the new OBGYN takes me as a new patient. I thought it was going to be confirmed on Tuesday or Wednesday, but did not hear anything. So I called and now I am being told I may not know until next week! I am a little nervous about this, but I know it will all work out and I will be happier in the end! I am also in limbo in another situation. I reserved a bed and breakfast for my husband and I to have a weekend getaway for Valentines Day/His birthday. Well the inn keeper was suppose to charge a deposit on my card last Friday then she said this Wednesday, but has not done anything yet! If I do not see anything posted onto my card by tomorrow I will be emailing her again!

On a good note I did find out that Western Career College does free ultrasounds to help train their students (Thanks for the info Stephanie!) I have an appointment tomorrow at 11am and I am really excited about it! They do a 45 min Ultrasound with Sex determination and I heard even 3d. They also put it onto a VCR tape if you bring one! I will be getting pictures as well, so I will post an update tomorrow! WE might know the sex of our baby!!

22 weeks

Well there is not much to report! We still do not know the sex of the baby and I have not been able to fully convince Lloyd into the 3d ultrasound. My next appoint is on Feb. 5th with my regular doctor unless I can get in with a new doctor before then. I will be calling today to see if this will be possible. I found a women doctor and I think I will like her a lot better. She also delivers at Sutter Roseville which is something I have been looking into. That hospital has a brand new NICU and the labor and delivery rooms are more like hotel suites then hospital rooms. As for symptoms, I have been having really bad leg and foot cramps. My legs are very sore from this and it is getting hard to sleep at night. I am getting a body pillow this weekend so hopefully that will help. I can feel a lot of movement now which is good because before I was not feeling much and was starting to get worried. The movements are a lot more suttle then I remember with my last pregnancy, but every once in a while I will feel a good one! I have had two dreams about the baby; one was a dream of an ultrasound and the baby was obviously a boy. The next dream I saw the baby after it was born and it was a girl. I am sticking with my original gut feeling and that is it is a girl. If I am wrong then so be it, but that is what I think and feel. That is it for now. I will post more belly shots soon and update on my doctor situation as soon as I get it resolved.

Slideshow to Go with State Capitol/Park of Dreams Blog

State Capitol/Park of Dreams

Today for the sanity of my poor husband who has been working back to back hours, I took the kids and left the house. We headed out at about 9:45am and did not get home until after 2pm. We went to the State Capitol for a tour to fulfill a project that Nathan has to do for school. We got there a little after 10am, so we had to waste some time until 11am. The tours are on the hour so we missed the 10am tour. To past the time we went down in the basement to explore. There you find a theatre, a gift shop and a restaurant with snack machines. We went into the gift shop then got a snack. The theatre shows movies, but most of them had already started and the boys were not really interested in seeing one. So we went back up to the tour area to wait for the tour. Personally I felt the tour was a bit boring the tour guide seemed to give us a lot of information/background on the architecture of the building and fixtures, etc. Some of the information was interesting; if only I retained any of it! Nathan took some notes hopefully enough to write a summary for his project.

After the 45 minute tour we headed back toward home. We wanted to get Subway to go and head to a park since it was such a beautiful day! we choose a park we had not been to in a while called The Park of Dreams. This park use to be made out of wood and looked like a castle, but I have heard rumors that it burnt down and lots of kids were getting hurt. Now the park has been completely rebuilt into a modern day plastic playground with rock climbing walls, spider web structure, and some really nice swings! I really enjoyed spending the day with my boys! I wish my husband could have come along, but he needed his rest. When we got home he thanked me for letting him sleep in. I am glad that I was able to be supportive of his needs!

PS: Someday I will figure out how to post the blog and slideshow together!

The Gift of Warmth

So most of you that read this blog know that my best friend Stephanie moved to Oklahoma this past summer. Her and I have been friends for over 20 years and our kids all grew up together. So needless to say it was a very hard thing to have her move away. My boys miss Mikey terribly and I miss Stephanie and my "girlfriend", Cece my playmate! We talk on the phone as often as possible and we chat online when our computers cooperate. Anyway, I know that she is happy there and doing well. For Christmas she made all the boys little blankets and sent them a care package of hot cocoa and popcorn for movie nights. All these things were meant to keep them warm. She wrote a very cute poem to go with the blankets and the boys carried their blankets around all night. She even put a little lovey size blanket in the package for the new baby. Lets all hope and pray it is a girl because the blanket is pink with stars and moons on it! LOL! Alex read the poem as they opened the gifts and Nathan actually cried (He will kill me for posting that, but it was cute that he showed his sensitive side.)PS: You will need to click on the picture of the poem if you want to read it. I could not get it any bigger. I think these will be very special blankets for all of the kids and we thank Auntie Stephanie, Mikey and Cece for putting so much love and thought into it. We look forward to seeing them hopefully this summer!

21 week Update

Well, I am not happy with the results of our appointment today, but we have a healthy baby so I cannot complain. I think my doctor was just being lazy, but he says it is still too early to see the sex 100%. He did say that he might have saw labia, but it could have also been the lines of the scrotum? I saw what he was looking at and did not see a penis, so I am 95% sure it is a girl. He also said he thinks we will be happy with the end results and next appointment we should be able to know 100%. We might find out before then if I can convince Lloyd for us to go get a 3d ultrasound done. As for my symptoms, I have been experiencing a little bit of muscle strain in my abdomen area mainly when I do a lot of lifting or too much in general. Usually laying down or just resting will take care of it. I have taken Tylenol once when it got real bad. I did not talk to the doctor about this, but if it continues I might. As for everything else, I finally put on some weight and people that I am around alot are starting to say I am finally showing. Strangers still do not ask, so I think I still hide it well. I measured at 21 weeks and 1 day today and I am suppose to be 20 weeks and 6 days. The due date is still officially May 22, but could be early if you go by the measurements. That or this is just going to be a big baby! I promised some belly shots, so those are below. Alex took them for me! Also below are the two ultrasound pictures from today. They suck, so good luck seeing anything. The top ultrasound picture is of the babies face straight on and the bottom is a chest shot of the babies heart and partial of face. The baby looked pretty crammed in there today, but it could have just been the positioning? I think that is everything. We go again on Feb 5 and should know boy or girl, so keep voting and look forward to seeing the results!

Happy New Years

I rang in the New year like I have for probably the past 5 years...sleeping. I just cannot seem to stay awake these days; I guess I am getting old. There really is not much partying for a mommy of three and one on the way. I thought of going to the Downtown Celebration, but to drag all the kids out in the cold and fight the crowds and traffic; just does not sound like my idea of fun. For me New Years has just been another day gone by. It really does not mean anything to me. Yeah I may think in my head it is a new year and I am going to do such and such differently, but in the grand scheme of life I know that it will just be the same old same old. I am happy with it for the most part so why change it. Now don't get me wrong there are definitely things I would like to see change, but making it happen is the hardest part. I guess that would be the one thing that I would like to work on; making things happen. I think them, I say them, but I don't act on them. Motivation and determination are not my strong points. I can do it; I know that if I set my mind to anything I can achieve it. The problem is setting my mind. This is where my lack of modivation and determination come in. I am a procastonator! I always say I will get to it, but honestly I never do! Do they have PA meetings that I can go to? I guess I will have to look into that...someday! Until then, I am back to the same old same old.